5k Speed, almost

Wow. Been a crazy eight months. Yep you heard that right -- 8 months.
8 months since a young man in Miami passed away, and by his selfless gift he saved my life. It still is almost unbelievable some times. The idea that my lungs are not my lungs. That part of me is not ME. And that my body works better without ME in it. Weird. Does that make sense?

I dunno. Don't guess it really needs to.

More news on my bionic body :: she dragged her ever-growing ass across the finish line of her very first 5k post transplant this past weekend - The Gr8 to Don8 Organ Donation 8k/5k. Well, it was really the first in about 11 years, so lets just say it wasn't the most exciting run, nor the prettiest, but it was 3.1 miles and I ran (almost) all of it. I crossed the finish line with a mildly embarrassing 48min (pretty sure it was somewhere between 45-48, I didn't look until i had already crossed and remembered they had a big clock posted for time) 5k speed. A far cry from the 20min 5ks from high school, but what can you do.


Organ Recipient 5k run number - 64! (Square root? = 8!)


Official run tshirt!


Runnin the track during the last .1 of the race

I realized half way through the run why I felt so sluggish opposed to the memories of how it used to feel when I ran. Aside from the obvious lack of muscle tone (its a work in progress people), I am enormous. Yup, officially hit the 152lb mark. Through the run I was VIVIDLY aware of the constant jiggle coming from a mysterious place behind me, one that I have never been aware of before. It was my ass. Its finally happened. I have an ass. Don't get too excited, we aren't talkin about a JLo booty...just one that fills in the seat of my jeans. No more frog/old man butt for me! But it has been quite an adjustment. There is just so MUCH of me. I mean, Im not FAT - but it definitely feels that way! I am OVER 30lbs heavier than I was the day of my transplant, and I have NEVER been this heavy in all my life. Learning how to maneuver this weighty body has been a strange, but welcome sensation. Except when I learned that it was partly to blame for the slow go through the neighborhood during the race...

At any rate. I ran. And it was pretty stellar. My donor lungs and my body worked pretty well together. I wasn't breathless at all, so that was pretty fantastic...and thinkin about my donor during that run made me more thankful than ever that he decided to donate his organs and that I was the lucky one to receive them. These bad boys are the real deal!

April is organ donation awareness month. By choosing to donate your organs when you pass you can potentially save the lives of eight people, not to mention the healing of many more through tissue and tendon donation. Be someone's hero and sign up to donate your organs! Learn more at www.donatelife.net or by reading the organ donation/transplantation section of this blog. Even if you don't think your organs would be accepted for one reason or the other - sign up anyway! You never know what can be used. Id love to hear from those who are donors - new donors and previous donors!



8 months, 8 lives that can saved through one organ donor, race number 64 (8x8), today is April 8.... I like 8s. 8 is a good number.... :)

Thanks again for all the continuous support! Remember to recycle your parts! :)

Much love...
Erin

Thankful - doesn't even describe it

Happy Thanksgiving!!




Gotta love google right? :)

Chris and I just got home from celebrating with friends and family all day. I hafta say, this has been the best turkey day in YEARS. For the last few years, I have spent more thanksgivings sick and in the hospital that I have OUT of the hospital. And those I was out - I was still feelin like crap. This year -- total 180. We did the whole eat thing (and I'm fairly certain I ate at least HALF my weight in food - which is more impressive than it might sound considering the fact that I had to JUMP into my jeans today). I had fun, energy and even walked with my cousins, soon-to-be cousin-in-law, and a friend down to the intercostal waterway (annnnd a flooded field my cousin tried to present as the intercostal - we're smarter than you think Amy lol).

After our foot tour we left for a visit to a friend's house. God bless Italians. I'm not generally much for Yanks, but every so often you meet some northern Yanks or Pollocks and you just fall in love...(and I mean that sincerely, I'm not makin fun!)












To say that I'm thankful for the major change in my life would be absolutely INSULTING. The way this whole transplant thing is goin, I'm not sure I'll ever be more thankful to God for anything more. If there is something bigger ahead - well, I just can't see it. But then again I honestly didn't see makin it TO transplant, much less THROUGH it. So I guess anything is possible.

More than my life, I'm thankful for the people in my life. This entire journey would not have been the same without the incredible people who have stuck by me. My husband-who stuck by me at my absolute worst and who has driven me to the hospital more times than I can count in the wee hours of the morning. Who never left my side before or after surgery, and who has been better to me and for me than anyone I've ever known.

My parents - who traveled back and forth over and over, took a ton of time off from their jobs to make sure I was taken care of. My sisters who left their families at home to be with me during and after surgery, and who kept the pictures, phone calls and videos of them and my nieces comin when I was able to see them. Nothin can put a smile on my face quicker than those girls. Their husbands, my brothers, who have supported me and my sisters while I was in recovery and took care of the girls while their moms were with me.

The rest of my family - grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins and in-laws who made sure we had what we needed and kept my husband fed while I was in the hospital.

My sweet sweet friends. All the beautiful women who I love so much. Whose love and support I couldn't have done this without. To so many amazing people back in Stanly County - they leave me at a loss for words. All the calls and cards and fundraisers for us has kept me in constant tears. Seriously I don't think I have cried as much in my entire life!! I def do not feel worthy of all the support, donations and most importantly prayers. You all have literally saved me. Without y'all I probably wouldn't not be where I am now.

My amazing doctors. Dr Layish here in Orlando has worked his butt off to keep me alive the last few years. And let me tell you - I made him work for his money!! :) He is one of the greatest doctors I've even known, and I am eternally grateful for all he has done for me and for his Mayo recommendation. He will always be a very special person in my life. My Mayo team - Drs. Keller, Mallea, Alvarez, and Erasmus. Truly some of the smartest men in the world and have saved my life. They took such incredible care of me. I'll never been able to repay them for giving me my life back.

My donor and his family. The 30 year old man from Miami who made the decision to donate his organs when he died. Who saved my life and gave me a life worth living. I wonder if he could even comprehend what he would be able to do for someone when he passed. I spent so much time at the beginning completely terrified of whether these lungs would "take." I don't worry about that anymore. Whether I get one year with these lungs or ten, I will always be thankful and grateful for the chance to live this way, even if its for a moment. I'm thankful for his family, that they decided to honor his decision instead of contesting it. I'm grateful for the life of their son, and their influence in it. His lungs were perfect. Whatever he did in life - he did good. I just hope that he's in heaven now, sitting next to Jesus thinkin, "That's awesome. That's why I did this." I also hope he knows how grateful I am, how I carry him, whoever he is, with me everyday, and that I will never take his life for granted.

Most importantly, I'm thankful for my God. For whatever reason, he put me here for something. I've been told so many time how inspiring my story is, what a miracle this all is, and how so many have seen Jesus' hand in all this. I don't know how or why - but I'm startin to agree. Like I said, don't know why it needed to be me, but Im ok with it. He's given me this opportunity. To some how make a difference somewhere, so I hope this wasn't my entire purpose, to go through this. But if it is...I'm ok with that. He's delivered me from the hell I was living in. And for that, I am eternally grateful.

I hope you all have had an incredible thanksgiving. You all have meant so much to me through this. I will be forever indebted to you all.


Much love...xoxo
Erin

10 years, amazing people...one lucky girl.

This past weekend was my ten year high school reunion. Ten years. When I think back of what my life was like, what I was like....I can hardly believe it. So much has changed. The usual things have changed for all of us - big moves, marriages, babies, jobs - but my life, well its been a little cray cray. Going from completely healthy and normal, to spiraling towards death quicker than I think any of us actually realized at the time, to getting a second chance at a normal life after this transplant...well its been quite the roller coaster. Unfortunately, since I am still going through rehab and recovery here in Jacksonville I wasn't able to attend the reunion, which seriously bummed me out. I don't think lots of people really look forward to reunions, but I truly loved the Albemarle High School class of 2002. We had some awesome memories from those years and I was able to experience it all with some seriously awesome people. I really hate I missed it. But, if I had to miss it for anything, I guess a double lung transplant is a good enough reason! And hey...hopefully this transplant will get me to our 20th reunion!




AHS Class of 2002 10 year reunion - only about 1/3 of the class, but some awesome people turned out. And thanks to my girls for bringin my picture so I could make an appearance in the photo! LOL!!


While thinkin about all I was missing out on this weekend, I started thinkin about all the incredible people in my life. Ones who have been in my life since I was a child, to the ones who have been more recent additions. I realized that even though things haven't exactly gone perfectly over the last ten years, I have gotten through it and have been showed grace and blessings from God more times than I can count. And those blessing start with the incredible support system I have developed over the years. From family, to friends, to medical professionals - I have acquired an amazing group of people around me that, without every one, I wouldn't be here blogging about how incredible my life has become right now.




Me the week before my transplant - skinny, weak, on oxygen almost 24hours a day, and in a lot of pain. Very sick. Couldn't hardly stay awake to eat.




Nearly 7 weeks post double lung transplant - lots of color in my face (no more sickly gray), no more oxygen, gaining weight (20lbs and counting!), more energy than Ive had in years! Feelin Awesome!


I decided that this post should be less about me and more about a few incredible people in my life. People who have gone above and beyond these last few months to show me and my family an incredible amount of love and support. Way more than I deserve I can tell you that. There are many more than just the few I'll mention here today but trust me - before this is all over you'll hear about them all! In order to express our gratitude to everyone, it will def take more than one post.

The first group are my amazing girlfriends from Albemarle. Ive know these girls since I was very young. We have pretty much grown up together and been through A LOT to say the least. Our lives have changed so much the last few years - moving away to different towns (and in my case states!), weddings, babies, deaths of loved ones (we have seriously experienced the entire dang circle of life together). We are all spread around so getting together isn't very easy and only happens every so often. So you can imagine my surprise when I walked down to the lobby of our hotel the night I was discharged from the hospital after my transplant to see the sweet, beautiful faces of my best friends in the world - Janna Brown, Lisa Wray, Katie Adams, Adrienne Averette, and Sallie Spencer (we were minus one that night until later when Brittani Edwards arrived to further surprise me the next day!). I quickly dissolved into tears, something not very characteristic of me, and remained in complete shock for the rest of the night. Their presence right after the most life changing and stressful and amazing surgery of my life was EXACTLY what I needed. They will never, ever know what it meant to me that they had road tripped it down to see me, at the time not even knowing that I was out of the hospital yet. Ive loved these girls practically my entire life, but at that moment I honestly had never loved them more. And to keep the surprises coming, they had ordered these awesome bracelets and were all wearing one when they arrived. The bracelet they gave me is one of my favorite things in the world and I wear it EVERY DAY. It seriously hasn't left my wrist since I put it on that night. The bracelets are silver with the words Hope - Love - Breathe engraved on the outside and my initials engraved on the inside. They had actually ordered them from someone who was selling them to raise money for a family friend whos child has cystic fibrosis as well. So it not only meant as a symbol of support and love for me and what I was going through, it also helped another child with CF and that is so awesome. Did I mention that I love these girls? I do. A lot! We were able to spend most of the rest of the weekend together which was so much fun (albeit exhausting). It was the best possible to spend my first weekend post transplant and out of the hospital. I will never ever forget that time.




The awesome bracelets my sweet girls had made to show their support for me. I absolutely LOVE them - both the bracelets AND my girls LOL!





Dinner at Taverna in the San Marco district in downtown Jacksonville...super yummy and fantastic company! Couldn't have been a better day!


Another group of people I want to say a special thank you to is a group I am not going to name names specifically. Im not sure if that would make them uncomfortable or not, so to these people - and you know who you are - please forgive me for not naming names. These wonderful people have sent cards, gifts, gift cards, and financial donations to us in the last few months and we cannot begin to tell you how incredibly thankful we are to have each and every one of you in our lives. The contributions and kindness you have shown us has made these past two months so much easier to get through. Almost daily, a card or letter shows up in my mailbox with such incredible words of love and encouragement. I have saved each and every one of them and will keep them forever. They have carried all of us through this and we covet the love and prayers that have so generously been bestowed on us. Please know that we will never forget your generosity and we keep you all in our heart and prayers daily. You'll be hearing from me directly soon enough, but I wanted to be sure you all knew what an impact your support has made in our lives.

Also, right now are a few groups of people who are organizing fundraisers on our behalf. I am going to be honest, this actually makes me slightly uncomfortable. Having so many people coming out to support us - while absolutely amazing and overwhelming - is still embarrassing for me. I just keep wishing that it wasn't something that was necessary. But at the same time I am SO unbelievably humbled and grateful to everyone who is organizing and participating in each. We will never ever be able to express our overwhelming amazement at the generosity of so many. It is absolutely amazing the hearts of people. God continues to bless us, through all of you, and it is my fervent prayer that the blessings you all have given to us are returned to you in a huge way.

Thanks for indulging me a little tonight. I have tons more people to thank, but I want to make sure I can do it right and by trying to fit too many in on one post seems like it would get watered down a little. And the thanks we have for all of you is NOT something that should be watered down. Annnnd Ive got another day full of blood work, PFTS, xrays, and the ever exciting bronchoscopy tomorrow. I hafta be up and at em and a terribly ungodly hour, so its time for me to get some much needed sleep. My sleep patterns are still very crazy, so please send up a few prayers for them to regulate a little more, and of course, for positive results from the bronch tomorrow. I haven't had one in three weeks, and I am super nervous about what they will show. Ive been feeling great, and the fact that they feel Im doing good enough to move them from once a week to once every three weeks is a good sign, but still....going that long makes me super anxious. I feel a shaky, sweaty Erin comin on as I wait for my results LOL! So fingers, eyes, toes and anything else that be crossed for luck - please! I'll post more hopefully tomorrow, depending on how I'm feelin post bronch. You never really can tell. Last time I was OUT for like 6 hours. Time before that it was only an hour. So, we'll be playin this one by ear! So till then, I hope all is well for everyone! Nite all! :)




My good friend THE BRONCH...ahh we shall meet again soon my friend....


Much love...



Erin

It was NOT a drill.. Erin's GOT LUNGS!

It was NOT a drill. Erin received her new lungs on Tuesday July 31^st at the Mayo Clinic in Jacksonville, FL. In Erin’s place, I am blogging to keep all her adoring fans updated on her journey. Don’t worry, she will take back over soon enough!

Erin arrived at the Mayo Clinic and was in her room waiting for her scheduled surgery, by about 9:00 am on Tuesday. Family began to arrive at the hospital around 9:30 am excited and nervous for the final “Go” from the surgical team. As Erin and the family waited, the surgery time moved from noon to 2:00 PM while the harvesting division of the transplant surgical team went to get Erin’s new lungs from Miami.

Erin went down to the OR with a smile and a wave at 1:50 PM and went into surgery at approximately 3:00 pm, when the all-clear was received from the harvesting team. The Mayo OR gave the family calls a number of times throughout the surgery to update on how Erin was handling everything and where they were in the process. Finally, at 8:25 PM, the large group of Erin’s supporters got the exciting call that they were closing her up.

Erin returned to her ICU recovery room at around 9:00 PM sound asleep with her team of transplant specialists. The family was allowed to go in about an hour later to see her and say a quick prayer. Dr. Keller was there when I arrived and I got to ask plenty of questions, which he was thankfully willing to answer. At that time he explained that there was some bleeding around the left lung which could potentially cause some setbacks.

See, the left lung has been Erin’s nemesis over the years. With little, if any, true function left (due to a number of embolizations and bleeds) the lung had attached itself to her already inflamed pulmonary wall. When it was time to transplant this lung, there was quite a bit of bleeding that took place from its removal and continued into the night on Tuesday.

By midnight, and after approximately 35 minutes of sleep at the hotel, Chris gave us a call to let us know that Erin was heading back into surgery to control the bleeding that was coming from the left lung area. Back to the hospital we trekked. She was in surgery for about 2 hours and they were able to control the bleeding and remove two clots which had formed over her time in recovery. These clots had to be removed through surgery since they would not drain and could subsequently cause increased pulmonary pressure and collapse of the new lung.

By the time the family arrived back at the hospital in the morning, Erin was stirring. Being that I was one of the first in the room, I was concerned when I saw her lifting her hands (especially since the Dr. had explained to me that they might have her unconscious and on a ventilator for 24-48 hours after surgery). Chris quickly explained that they were waking her up and they were ready to get her up and moving. Things had obviously improved drastically since her latest surgery.

Erin awoke with a little confusion and fight against her ventilator but quickly calmed and focused to understand what was taking place. She was on narcotic medication at that point so was pain free but was lucid enough to spell things on her hand and show us that amazing sense of humor that is unique to Erin and, as we have seen, never failing.

Over the past two days the doctors have been working diligently to control pain and move her forward in her recovery. Let me please tell you, she is SUPER WOMAN. I have been saying it on Facebook since I started updating everyone, based on her incredible courage and strength before the surgery, but she has truly earned the name throughout this process. Yesterday and Today she has been weaned off many of the extra machines that go along with a transplant and has pushed herself to get better and better.

Erin is doing PT for her lungs and she is incredible! It’s just amazing how she is so competitive with herself and is working so hard in increase her PT numbers despite the fact that she has been told that most transplant patients don’t even EXPAND THE LUNGS ON THE FIRST DAY! Well, Erin didn’t get that memo, and neither did her husband! So, the funny part is, Chris thought she was supposed to be doing that every hour on the hour so he set his alarm and woke her up all night to do her PT. Well, yesterday morning, the nurse explained that she was only supposed to do PT during waking hours…. SOOO she earned a little extra credit.

She is awesome.

Yesterday was her birthday. She turned 28 and got the most amazing gift anyone could get. Life. Thank you Jesus for this gift, and we pray that the gift that this donor gave to Erin and our family will be a comfort to the family who lost their son/father/uncle/friend. He was able to provide a precious gift, and I can guarantee that Erin will take full advantage of the opportunity that has been given her. I only hope in my life and death I can provide such a gift to someone, I can tell you that Erin has and will continue to.

Yesterday Erin had machines removed, had a complete meal and took a motivating and awe inspiring walk. She walked around the entire ICU floor and wasn’t winded or tired. She was amazed and so were all the folks on her floor. Less than 24 hours after her surgery, she was walking… Wow.

Today she has continued to improve. More machines are gone and plans are being made to remove the chest tubes which are draining fluid from her pulmonary cavity tomorrow and the next day. The infectious disease doctor stated that would make her feel like a whole new person, especially since that is one of the most painful areas of Erin’s body right now. Great things are continuing thanks to the diligent prayers of Erin’s many friends and Prayer Warriors.

Erin’s husband has been her rock throughout this entire process and we all are so very thankful for him. He encourages Erin and knows just when and how to push her to get the very best out of her. Throughout their years of dating, and now years of marriage, I don’t know that Chris ever anticipated what his role would be in this stage of Erin’s life. I can now easily tell you, we would all not be where we are today without him, and we are so thankful!

I would like to thank you all for your many prayers and messages, Likes, texts and calls. It has meant so much to our family to feel the love and support that has been given to us all. Erin has always been a miracle but this has proven just how great His power is beyond a shadow of a doubt.

I know this is long winded but so much has happened and I didn’t want to leave anything out. Erin will be back soon. She looks forward to updating you all as she improves and feels better. Keep following, her posts to come will surely be entertaining!

I JUST GOT THE CALL!

Holy crap people this is not a drill!

At 1am I recieved my call from Mayo Clinic - they have  LUNGS  for me!!


As its stands right now, my surgery is scheduled for 12 noon on Tuesday. Right now I am getting discharged from Winter Park Memorial in Orlando, headed back to my house to geab some stuff and then we are off to Jacksonville. 


Unless we get up there and they determine that the lungs are not viable, it looks like by this time Tomorrow I will be breathing with a new set of lungs. If the lungs are not viable, this will be referred to as a dry run and then the surgery will cancelled. Ill remain on the list at my current stop and the waiting will start over again.




So, here we go guys. This could be it. Thank you to everyone who has kept my family in their thoughts and prayers through this. Please continue to lift us up today. Pray for my team of doctors, that the surgery is a success and they are guided by God's hands. Please pray for my family as they wait during surgery. Please pray for my donors family. Today they will say goodbye to someone they love. Ask the Jesus hold them as they say their final farewells to their loved one. Ask that they feel your prayers for them through this. And finally please lift me up in prayer. I need all the prayers I can possibly get.


Thank you...I love you all.




XOXOXO


ERIN